It's like you said before. Dealing with Rabbit Escape would piss you off, right? I've got some of the more straightforward abilities I know, but it's still not suited to fair play.
That's my point. If you stick to a straight-forward strategy you know will get you killed and then pat yourself on the back for being willing to die, you're not cool or brave at all. That's just selfish arrogance.
...Yeah. Dying on purpose or sacrificing yourself only satisfies your enemies and your own ego. If you won't live with your burdens, you're just handing them off to the people who love you.
Although... sometimes there really isn't another option... B-But even then, there's a difference between having no choice but to die, and not caring if you die.
It's deciding that you know their feelings better than they do. Or that feeling like a hero is more important than the pain you leave behind you. That's... the worst kind of arrogance there is. There's nothing I hate more than someone who self-righteously hurts their own loved ones that way.
[He would much rather talk about his dumb ideals than about the exact circumstances of his own death, actually. He says it doesn't bother him to talk about but, y'know. He's stubborn. Which is why he's currently actively yelling at his own brain not to start any of the weak emotional bullcrap.]
As for myself... I did. And it hurt those people exactly as badly as I knew it would.
[He doesn't like giving up on an argument, but he's also feeling his hands start to shake and he doesn't know Megumi well enough to feel safe being messed up in his presence.
Honestly he'd excuse himself but he physically cannot, so instead he's just going to roll over and put his face in the blankets.]
[He really isn't mad about the topic coming up. He would like to be able to talk about and think about what happened without feeling like he's going to implode. Alas, he's not there yet. Instead he's lying here in a blanketpile with a very cute snakeboy that makes him flustered and instead of paying attention to that he is wrestling with his own brain and being no fun at all.
...Not that he's ever very fun but that's not the point.]
You didn't do anything wrong. It's just-- The situation was really... really twisted. It makes my head hurt.
[Because trying super hard not to emote causes headaches...]
[The true horror of this situation is that Elliot cannot just make up an obviously fake excuse to run away this time. Instead he is forced to sit here with his face cherry red while he contends with the terrifying experience of perfectly normal healthy attraction.]
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[HUFF!!
...now that he's been a nice boy he has no idea how to proceed...]
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[here he is blushing again--]
Being cool is a bonus... But it's not really the point.
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It's like you said before. Dealing with Rabbit Escape would piss you off, right? I've got some of the more straightforward abilities I know, but it's still not suited to fair play.
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[more than it already does]
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...Yeah. Dying on purpose or sacrificing yourself only satisfies your enemies and your own ego. If you won't live with your burdens, you're just handing them off to the people who love you.
Although... sometimes there really isn't another option... B-But even then, there's a difference between having no choice but to die, and not caring if you die.
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You had to?
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[He would much rather talk about his dumb ideals than about the exact circumstances of his own death, actually. He says it doesn't bother him to talk about but, y'know. He's stubborn. Which is why he's currently actively yelling at his own brain not to start any of the weak emotional bullcrap.]
As for myself... I did. And it hurt those people exactly as badly as I knew it would.
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But I do think your read requires a lot more pride than most people have.
We can drop it, though.
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[He doesn't like giving up on an argument, but he's also feeling his hands start to shake and he doesn't know Megumi well enough to feel safe being messed up in his presence.
Honestly he'd excuse himself but he physically cannot, so instead he's just going to roll over and put his face in the blankets.]
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...Sorry.
[softly.]
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[He really isn't mad about the topic coming up. He would like to be able to talk about and think about what happened without feeling like he's going to implode. Alas, he's not there yet. Instead he's lying here in a blanketpile with a very cute snakeboy that makes him flustered and instead of paying attention to that he is wrestling with his own brain and being no fun at all.
...Not that he's ever very fun but that's not the point.]
You didn't do anything wrong. It's just-- The situation was really... really twisted. It makes my head hurt.
[Because trying super hard not to emote causes headaches...]
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[rolls over and squirms close, up against elliot's back, and reaches to take his hand, which happens to put an arm around his waist.]
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[Well. He's distracted from the bad feelings, because now they have been overridden by embarrassment.
He instantly sits up to scoot out of that embrace, not because he actually dislikes it but because he's too flustered to function.]
W-Wait wait wait! What was that about!?
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I-I-- You-- How is that so easy for you!?
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[He doesn't actually mean to be rude but unfortunately that is just how he communicates.]
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Cannot believe i dropped this,
!! It returns.
Re: !! It returns.
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